Senin, 05 Maret 2012

Kenangan itu Hanya Bisa untuk Dikenang

Tiba2 aku teringat masa2 saat aku masih kecil.
dan aku jadi sadar, betapa waktu tak akan bisa terulang lagi.
betapa tiap detik yang telah terlewat tak akan pernah kembali lagi.

masa-masa itu, saat kampung halamanku masih terasa begitu menyenangkan.
saat tubuh2 kecil kami berlari riang dibawah teriknya mentari.
saat itu, tak pernah sedikitpun terlintas dibenakku..
Kalau suatu hari aku akan pulang kesana dan menyaksikan tempat itu tidak akan pernah sama lagi seperti saat terakhir kali aku melihatnya

Gang yang rasanya menyempit...
Atap mushola yang rasanya lebih rendah...
Dan teman-teman masa kecil yang tak tahu hilang kemana...

Lalu rumah itu...
Rumah yang dulu menjadi saksi masa-masa kecil yang bahagia itu...
Terlihat sangat berbeda
Entah kenapa semuanya terasa sangat berbeda.

Terlebih lagi...
Aku merindukan keluargaku
Aku rindu saat-saat ketika aku membujuk mama agar mengijinkanku mandi hujan
Rindu saat-saat ketika kakak sulungku memarahiku
saat-saat ketika kakak keduaku mengusirku karena tak ingin aku mendengarkan obrolannya
saat ketika kakak ketigaku dengan berat hati mengikuti keinginanku untuk bermain...
dan ketika aku mandi dengan sangat riang berharap ketika Papa pulang kerja dia akan mengatakan:
“Anak Papa wangi sekali...”

entah cara apa yang bisa kulakukan untuk mendapatkan moment-moment itu kembali...

Tapi tak bisa...
Aku tahu aku sudah tak akan pernah bisa mengulangnya lagi
Kampung halaman sudah jauh berbeda
Teman-teman masa kecil sudah beranjak dewasa
Mama dan Papa merantau di seberang selat
Kakak sulungku begitu disayang Tuhan sehingga ia dipanggil lebih dulu daripada kami semua
Kakak kedua dan ketiga sudah memiliki keluarga sendiri yang ingin mereka bahagiakan

Tinggal aku...
Tinggal aku yang kadang-kadang masih suka bernostalgia dengan kenangan-kenangan masa lalu itu
Seperti saat ini...
Saat pikiran itu terlintas
Betapa waktu tak akan pernah terulang kembali...
Betapa masa-masa itu telah berlalu dan hanya bisa dikenang...
Hanya bisa dikenang...


Minggu, 01 Januari 2012

"The Only Exception" by Paramore

When I was younger, I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart and I watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love if it does not exist

But darling, you are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways to make it alone
Or keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable distance
And up until now I had sworn to myself that I'm content with loneliness
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/p/paramore-lyrics/the-only-exception-lyrics.html ]
Because none of it was ever worth the risk

But you are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving in the morning when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof, it's not a dream, oh

You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception

You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing
Oh, and I'm on my way to believing

 
is there an exception?

Selasa, 29 November 2011

"Like A Song lyrics" By Lenka


I can't forget you when you're gone
You're like a song that goes around in my head
And how I regret, it's been so long
Oh, what went wrong? Could it be something I said?

Time, make it go faster or just rewind
To back when I'm wrapped in your arms

All afternoon long it's with me the same song
You left a light on inside me, my love
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/l/lenka-lyrics/like-a-song-lyrics.html ]
I can remember the way that it felt to be
Holding on to you

I can't forget you when you're gone
You're like a song that goes around in my head
And how I regret, it's been so long
Oh what went wrong? Could it be something I said?

Time, make it go faster or just decide
To come back to my happy heart